FOUR FEATHERS PRESS ONLINE EDITION: STILL NIGHT Poets and artists published in Four Feathers Press Online Edition: Still Night are now published online and invited to read at the Saturday Afternoon Poetry Zoom meeting on Saturday, October 26th between 3 and 5 pm PST.

Saturday, October 26, 2024

R A Ruadh

The night draws nigh


The night draws nigh

when the veil between worlds

reveals the other side


The night draws nigh

sunset walking closer

to the sunrise


The night draws nigh

only ravens and coyotes

converse between rattling leaves


The night draws nigh

the deep sky is darker

and stars move more brightly


The night draws nigh

my heart beats ready for magic

a flame lighting the path


The night draws nigh

as Samhain calls me

to share tales with the dead


Jack G Bowman

Hallway Weaving


Terror a darkened hallway

as he tries to make his way east

toward the restrooms and two back bedrooms

collapsing over obstacle

after obstacle

then pushing himself him

scratching the walls to right himself’

beneath the dim ceiling light

a sound echoes

begins to mix with his blurry vision,

vertigo,

realizes, it’s his own breath fading,

the shadow creatures approach

all hunger and teeth.


Saturday, October 19, 2024

Alicia Viguer-Espert


The Night My Mother Met Lola
*


My mother sits on the edge of her bed,

like music a conversation, soars to the clouds;

I think what does she know of gypsies’ traditions,

the meaning of Flamenco dancers’ itinerant lives?


Lola wants to read her fortune,

describe what’s on the other side

away from feather beds, inheritance rights.

Outside, moonlight thins into a silver crest.


They share premonitions, old tales, 

memories stored on top of armoires’ 

higher shelves stacked with useless money 

because it expired after the war; another loss. 


Lola sings, “Ay Pena Penita, Pena,”

a ballad of heartache and banishment

conjuring a caravan of wanderers 

dancing from India into the bedroom.


My mother shares her own tragedy,

brothers disappearing one by one into the dark,

the father’s death, the mother’s brow wilted

by loneliness and hunger brought by war. 


Lola insists to teach her the right way 

to wrap herself with a Manila shawl,

shake her hips to drop heavy burdens 

like mortal sins at the confessional. 


Both remember the bombings,

darkening windows, meandering lines  

to grab a little rice, a friendly conversation, 

the heartache of their unattainable dreams.


Singing begins softly, Lola’s voice, seashells 

swept by sadness and sandy grains of insomnia.

A red sun pushes itself above the horizon to listen 

to my mother’s oceanic laments of separation.


Exile stories mingled with love, pain and mystery.

Lola anoints my mother’s forehead with olive oil 

as a dule of doves traces the indigo sky with comets 

healing what’s left of the wounded night, for now.                                       

                                

  *  Lola Flores, a gypsy dancer and singer famous and popular for generations in Spain.





Haibun


After I Kissed my Convalescent Husband at the Hospital


I kissed my husband good bye and walked into the night, a sad sliver of moonlight and my wool coat as my only companions. It was November 1st and the residents of Srinagar, -Muslims and Hindus, had no reason to celebrate, neither did I.

On the deserted boulevard a few street lights shone over the onyx-like wet pavement. After a while a rhythmic distant sound entered my consciousness. Alerted I accelerated my steps towards Dahl Gate to hire a shikara to take me to our houseboat. The sound advanced faster. To my right, on the sleek reflective pool of the sidewalk I noticed the silhouette of a person, a man no doubt. I could hear his breathing closer to my ear, not a pleasant scenario for a foreign woman walking alone at night. 

As the shadow loomed over my head I turned to face him, swung the nylon bag I carried -with two glass jars inside- and using all my strength hit him again and again hollering like a wolf. To my surprise the ghost ran away.


on a cold rainy night

a man is defeated 

by the food of a woman





Earthquakes


I lean on the door jamb with my neighbor

unlike thirty years ago at my first earthquake.

I could swear my husband asked me to lie down

before he called my name, slapped me softly, 

insisted I fainted watching violently uprooted trees. 


That day the red and purple sky scared me

like now do those bruises Margarite wears, 

the battered wives’ badge of honor.

She assured me she wasn’t one until she was

lying on a hospital bed, two arms broken.


That first earthquake didn’t unsettle me 

with freeways damaged I continue working 

on my computer, forgot the office, the fear.

But for weeks my hands shook on the mirror, 

my chin trembled sensing footsteps, my tea soured.


She’s sour too, angry at the firmness of fate,

the blue moods stopping her from packing,

the scratchy microphone of his throaty voice

ordering her to attention: clean, cook, stay.

She sweeps floors, performs her wifely duty,


gets beaten anyway between dreams 

of disappearing into space like a meteorite,

owning a garden of lavender and rosemary, 

knowing her hunger for companionship is dead,

and the joy in her hips of honey will not return.


The trees shed their leaves, her skin peels

by the fireplace she gets cigarrette burns,

on her head’s bold patches, she paints birds.

She sinks daily into a dark well of sorrows,

violins never play for her in the night.


I tell her paralyzing anxiety made me faint,

being an ostrich hiding our heads under the sand

could killed us as well as earthquake’s debris.

I whisper that the way to freedom is to abandon  

earthquake drama, leave the door jam and step outside.  


Marvinlouis Dorsey


Kick-

in

back

re-

laxing


un-

der

strange 

full blue 

moon


been

taxin

my-

self


as if

i was

an IRS 


just 

an-

other 

test 


be-

fore 

i can

see


who

am


Friday, October 18, 2024

Michelle Smith


Haiku #1


Moonrise bright, moonlight

Black velvet midnight gem sky

October's still night.




Haiku #2


Moon glow and rising

Creamy circles brightly dance

Rays of the still night.




Dodger blue tarp tents


Unhoused vs homelessness

Busy mornings and still nights

Owning compartments of

 plastic comfort

To keep the weather elements 

from a face becoming leathery at bay

The masses of Freeway Freddies

own the underpass

a concrete mattress cold and gray

Tumbleweed bodies, arid, are the

human plants that thirst for bottled water,

huddle for warmth from sun filled rays.

A thirsty Egyptian towel, 

shower soap and water 

as in Calgon take me away.

Dodger blue tarp tents can only 

do so much to prevent a 

wind blown breeze

sharp chill, arthritic depth of

the bone unseasonal winters cold

from the still night into day

and their makeshift Home Sweet Home.


Rob Tannahill

"The Stoic"


there’s a rose blanket

on my bed

a gift given to me

that last night on the street

dude bade me buena suerte

and walked away

funny thing, me

kicked off the Greyhound

for extreme vomiting

in the moving bathroom

and I never argued

just walked away

been to jail enough

16-inch blocks of beige painted stone

so thick you can peel off the stuff

bunkie wrote Silvers on the wall

Rooster wrote Lost Dog

and I felt God hold me

in the still night

in the pathos

in the foresight

we were far gone on

Effexor and Buspar

in the shakedown

final head count

lost four years of life

that's over

I haven't had a soup in years

my apartment on Front Street is

fireworks and 

jumping demons

dreaming of

a place

where I’m finally okay

this desk is IKEA

putting it together was a breeze

plastic hands hold my water bottle

orgone pyramid for a pretty shape

got my grandmother’s old lamp

her mirror

still hangs on the wall behind me

and acted, very briefly

as an interdimensional portal

I did

however

wash the glass of the sun gate

and run the obligatory

apo pantos kakodaimonos

and smoke bundles of sage

put my own face to the mirror 

and screamed change!

you ever do that?

hold yourself hostage 

and say something like

I’ll smash your ass if you don’t GROW UP

now look at me

chalked up a new chance at the horse race

a spirit scores for the faithless tonight

if I had a soul, bet he got it

with blood and archaic lettering

egregore gibberish divine

a chance that I had

turned around and had me

and we tried our luck on each other

not classically, though—

long time ago, that was such a long time ago

now this new age

view from above business I got on

takes a bit longer to get the check

but it’s all about sustainability

and the angels pay more

as long as I'm

up at dawn to watch the sunrise

up at dawn to smile

up at dawn to say, 

"Now this--yes this. This is what I'm made for."


Radomir Vojtech Luza

Barren Buffet


Cinema is not here

Music in tears

Literature fears

Dance unclear

Comedy in arrears

Night still in King Lears


We are Humpty Dumpty

Sitting in a stall

Like a pockmarked hall

Neighborhood mall


Muse on the run

Notes near a gun

Camera shattered by the sun

Inspiration over and done

Imagination a ridiculous pun

We a mutilated sum


Where are our hands?

In a shell counting strands

When will we die?

In the next moment

Devouring ham


How will our souls excel?

I don't know

Maybe ringing bells

Hearts in hell


Vanilla the air

Neutral stare

Alabaster glare

Emptiness over there

Wasteland bare


 


Hollow Hall


We walk in chains

Put there by vanity

Tightened by sanity

Loosened by humility


Strolling in a sea of commotion

Below the pollution

Inside the revolution

Limber the sensation


Striding between cracks

In our lack

Ribs in my sacral iliac

Squares on a chessboard


Sprinting away from the kind

The very bind between

Love and hate

Early and late


Soaring through stucco skies

With no reason why

Hollow in soul and lie

Rye and pie


Still as night

We abandon the fight

Flying a kite

Into this disturbing blight


Patricia Murphy

STILL


There are many stills into the night.

They are varied by sight.

Not many are common.

But some are clowned upon.

Not all.


Stills can be seen.

And not heard.

Like a nerd.

They are absurd.

To the touch.


But as such.

They are known.

Just look at a typewriter.

You'll see the upper and lower case.

Just like lace.




NIGHT


Night comes and goes.

It never lasts.

Like a glass.

You wash it once.

And it's clean as a whistle.


Like a thistle.

Night is a blast.

Like a cast of characters.

It remains stable.

Like an able person.


Night is to be preserved.

As a curve.

It never falters.

Or teeters.

It remains steadfast.


As a mask.

Forever past.

But a dash.

Like a cat.

Taking a nap.


Mary Mayer Shapiro

NIGHT SOUNDS


Zephyr blew

Brushed my checks

Leaves rustling

Crickets chirping

Owl's hooting

Dogs barking

Cats meowing

Stars sending Morse Code

Glass of tea

Relaxing in outdoor air

Then all was quiet

Stillness of the night

Leaves drooping

Cats and dogs seeking shelter

Crickets hiding

Wind stops blowing

Temperature dropped

Barometer register no air pressure

Day turned into night

Storm of a century

Destruction, mayhem

Life changed forever

Welcome to climate change




BE STILL, BE STILL


Babies in ovens

Maybe they will stop

Be Still, Be Still

Torching people

Maybe they will stop

Be Still Be Still

Raping, burning

Maybe they will stop

Be still, Be Still

Taking hostages

Maybe they will stop

Be Still, Be Still

Fighting back, killing terriorists

Maybe they will stop

Be Still, Be Still

Only want peace, no cease fire

Maybe they will stop

Be Still, Be Still

Continue to attack, do not want peace

Will not stop

Be Still, Be Still

Killing hostages, using their people as shields

Will not stop

Be Still, Be Still

Death to America

Pro Palestine's protest

Free Palestine terrorist

Maybe they will stop

Be Still, Be Still

They will not stop

From sea to sea

Kill all infidels

They will not stop

No longer Be Still

Do Not Be Still




NIGHT SKY


Moon orbits the Earth

Surveys the sky

Stars, comets, meteorites

Having different phases

Full, half, quarter

Waxes and wans

Emitting light

New Moon

Discharges no light

At all

Night is pitch black

Moon at rest

Sleeping


Rolland Vasin AKA Vachine


Lunar Warning


Full moon in the morning, poets’ portents of foreboding?

Warning of lines without end stops, stumbled troches,

or notice from restless Muses of mischief on the way,

omphaloskepsis out the window an occupational hazard.


Jeffry Jensen


FOG IN SILENT RETREAT


A turntable nighttime is abandoned by dawn.

I had jazz, pop, rock, folk going strong in the basement.

A nice Norwegian girl had plans to become semidetached.

She refused to do an inventory of what she was jettisoning.

I was not that impressed by her knees or her red pullover,

but there was definitely something that made her stand out.

A desert dust storm woke up the bathroom mirror.

It did not do anything for the spiritual vacancy that has muddied my palms.

The Norwegian girl would break into humming Strawberry Fields Forever

whenever I brought up how the Sixties were an inflatable bicycle tire

swerving into traffic with too much acid filling the dead zone.

Burma Shave took me on a Tombstone trip when I was still wet behind the ears.

The real Burma put Dad in a malaria funk to beat the band.

He rode boars up and down the mud trails left by the enemy.

When in doubt, I practice Penny Lane on the alto sax.

It always seems to clear my head of so much California debris.

There was a big hole near the entrance of the Valley College library

that made it difficult to keep out crazy coyotes looking for salvation.

I only mention this since I was an Adjunct there for 12 years

and I came to believe that renovations are the curse of modern life.

Between space and a hard place, I keep tabs on the seasonal fog

that is retreating into a YA blog factory threatening to grow into the next big thing.


Mark A. Fisher

plutonian shore


I toss in the 3am darkness

my dream fading into thoughts

trying to puzzle out plots

to unwritten stories

that I’ll likely forget

as the sun rises

on responsibility

and my muddling

finds no closure

as another day slips

out of potential

onto the cusp

of past

and future

where existence toys

with folly

like I do

when sleep has fled

and I choose

to rise before the sun

and derail

the dismay

that lurks behind

the whispered curtains

watching me

and waiting

for me to finally

become mad

and listen

to the black bird’s

call




carpe noctem


the wind that

chills me

does not touch

the moon glowed clouds

still against

the autumn stars

mere memories

against a velvet black

painting of all the nights

I said

“wait”

‘cause I could be

the man on the moon

looking down

at pirouetting

dancing worlds

wrapped up in

experience

singing to gods

unknown

until the eastern sky

glows

a poppy orange

and time

breaths a sigh

seizes the day

then lets go


PJ Swift

Still Still Night


The advantage of the rolling nights, endlessly, tumbling night after night, are the stories that don't stick, that make little sense, that emerge nevertheless. Or so my friend told me.  He told me as well about his acquaintance who lived in a marvelous house, in a coveted suburb of a glorious city.  That friend of a friend lived there, alone, in that large, stately mansion, or so most people believed.  But upstairs, late at night, when the desk lamp came on, one could see the silhouette of a second resident, who never ventured out and was not known. The friend of a friend was a dapper sort, the kind who made a pipe and silk lounging robe look glamorous. He'd stand in the doorway proffering pleasant hellos to passersby, without anyone truly getting to know him.  Upstairs, shrouded in shadows, plump and be-frocked, his mysterious partner.  What nobody knew about them was that they had moved there from a distant realm.  They could have been spouses, perhaps, but indeed, they were connected more profoundly than that. They were retired characters from an over-told, well-worn fable. They were the Scorpion and the Frog, living in their story-telling limbo.


Thursday, October 17, 2024

Shih-Fang Wang

A Cosmic Dream


Looking up at the stars 

On a summer night

I am mesmerized


Closing my eyes               

I escape to                   

The unfathomable depth 

Of the universe  

Traveling in the cosmos  

Into the unknown


I enter into a multidimensional universe

Passing ten thousand galaxies

I descend into a black hole

Where time and space are distorted


In the mysterious silence

I find peace

Between the rational and illogical

Reality and illusion 

Conflict and harmony

And the beginning and the end 

Turn into one 

All-consuming truth


Gia Civerolo

black night haiku


Night sky black whispers

come to me please.  She follows.

Taste buried blue dreams.





god looks away some days

I am punk rock temperament
I forgot a time before that
Feeling the rush of going 
Toe to toe
Rebelling against everything

I am a product of rosary veins
Novenas through the centuries
Catholic faith rooted deep
In love for others
Self-shame hangs on the cross
along with Jesus
like nails it gets in the way

I am a sparkle of a super
Blue moon
In the mirror 
Disguising hats hiding
parts of myself
Shining bright
in the night
and the light





poems as therapy
 
I am looking inside out
Cyclone chaos
Concave words mirroring
upside down answers
 
Alice in Wonderland
Perception clearly 
Right in front of me
Gazing upon proximity
 
A good actor, I never dive
totally into clear honest 
still water schisms
Searching ends with me
 
Is it plagiarizing if
you steal from yourself?
I’ve become lazy to the flow
Slam dunk, stick the landing
 
An audience member
clapping at the conclusion
automatically, no critical
or intellectual thinking
 
You make a secret
game of it all
Don’t tell anyone what 
the words are really saying

You said, 
“Be your own therapist”
I hope I am good 
I have very high standards
 

CLS Sandoval

Name Drop

 

I think Aubrey Plaza is taking my speech class. She shows up on Zoom with somebody else’s name in the left corner of her little Zoom box. But she looks and sounds exactly like herself. She’s absent enough for someone with a pretty busy acting schedule. Seeing her every lecture, or at least the lectures she is present for is bringing me back to the time that I practiced yoga for an entire 90 minutes next to Emily Blunt, and did not realize it until my ex-husband mentioned it to me on our way out of the studio. Or the time that Drew Barrymore stood in line two people ahead of me at the same yoga studio.  Or, when I realized that the stinky guy to my right in a Sunday night yoga class was Colin Farrell.  Once I realized it was him, suddenly his body odor was less of a stink and more of a relief. I didn’t have to feel so self-conscious about my own body odor.  In class, I ask “Aubrey” if she and Jenna Ortega are secretly BFFs.  Though my student doesn’t understand my reference to the actresses’ shared presentation at the 2023 SAG awards, she does give me an Aubrey-esque deadpan stare.  A few other students get it and giggle.  One loses it so much that he has to momentarily turn off his camera.  I move on, as if I said nothing, but the Aubrey look alike stays on camera, moving so little that I wonder if she has switched to a static shot. 




Right before Bed

 

Everything is clean.  The floors are swept and mopped

She finished it all.  The to-do list is now crumpled up

In the trash bag, which is neatly tied and in the

Dumpster in the parking lot. Her hair is braided.

She’s wearing her favorite silky night gown

The dog has been walked and fed.

The baby is asleep.  Her face and teeth are clean.

The only thing left is to embrace him.

He’s not coming home.




Vaccines

When you are a first-time mom, you don’t realize how much time you are going to spend in the doctor’s office with your perfectly healthy infant. Watching doctors and nurses prick that perfect newborn skin can be unsettling to say the least.  I never questioned the value of vaccinating, but I never realized the pain I would feel watching my daughter’s discomfort with them.  Once, a nurse told me that I could leave the room when Evelyn got her vaccines so that I wouldn’t have to witness them. I was horrified at the suggestion, and of course I stayed in the room and held my little baby. She was happy and gurgling and the moment she felt the needle she had a look of betrayal that of course triggered my mommy guilt and tears. But I was going to be there. This was part of the foundation I was laying for her to know that no matter what the world does to her, Mommy will always be here.  Years later, the Covid lockdown stunted our social lives, and though Evelyn still hated them, it was vaccines that were the key to unlock the door to allow us to go out again.

 


Wednesday, October 16, 2024

jf giraffe

UNBELIEVABLE (HAIKU) 


You said you loved me

I stood still when you said it

The night was shocked too

 

Mani Suri

Forest wears mist's robe

Fish swim past a boat's oars still

Night succumbs to dawn.


Ellyn Maybe

AROMATHERAPY (HAIKU)


The night smells citrus

Fruitful California

lingers in the air




MUSIC (HAIKU)


One song I sure love

Night Comes On, Leonard Cohen

Always eternal


Tuesday, October 15, 2024

Hedy Habra

Or Am I Or Am I Not A Knot Of Contradictions?

After Harmony by Remedios Varo


Last night I woke up in angst. I thought my cat was scratching

behind the closed door. It must have been a desperate critter

scratching frenetically the surface, caught somewhere within the

unfathomable layers wrapped around our home. Its tragic attempt

at freedom left me terrified. I imagined the wall’s plaster cracking

open, giving place to another dimension from which a trapped bird

or bat would fly, or was it another being immured for too long,

striving to liberate itself as it sensed feathered nests in the back of

the recliner’s upholstery?


When I sit still for a while on my desk, I hear the growth of

underground roots filling the interstices of tiles as though I were in

an abandoned patio invaded by weeds or the ruins of an ancestral

house. I am no longer alone, surrounded by reflections of my

lengthening shadow rising over the walls. That’s when I sense

writing as a form of incantation. See, that’s why I write, not to

tell a story but to reconcile myself with the echoes of the tunes

that keep singing within me like a haunting melody as the musical

score becomes tridimensional, takes a life of its own, or is it just a

variation on the same tune?


First published by The Night Heron Barks

From Did You Ever See The Other Side? (Press 53 2023)



Reading by Candlelight


Bent over the page, I watch the light of the candle cast fluid shadows,

the way the cypress pierces low clouds with its vertical green flame,

flaring will-o’-wisps spring from the spiral staircase of my

consciousness, ferns unfurl in slow motion, spread liquid color

at dawn as fronds fill spaces once covered with snow,

the hearth’s fiery tongues my cat and I watch flicker all night long,

the blue flame rising when I’d flambé cognac over crêpes suzettes,

the flicker of a match lighting a cigarette,

the infamous flames of a pyre or an auto da fe in a central square,

the flame of a candle I read about, lighting Camoens’ table,

his cat sitting on a pile of notes eyes gleaming at the waning wick,

the poet keeps writing in the dark under the light shed from the eyes

of his cat,

the tall flames casting a shadow-show of a couple’s encounter over

the walls of a cave,

flames rising from Beirut at night, as we watched from the mountains

during the civil war,

the flames of violence filtered by the TV screen, more virtual each day,

still color the news, images hiding the smell of blood and charred skin


First published by Poetic Diversity The Litzine of Los Angeles,

From The Taste of the Earth (Press 53 2019)



Vanishing Point

After Surreal Board Games: Street of Chance by Juanita Guccione


Under a dark moon that has decided to keep silent, I wander

along the street of chance, staring at the vanishing point,

uncertain of the odds of being, but with the certainty that it

leads to the sea. I walk like an automaton among passersby,

gliding as faceless pawns. A couple of black horses pound the

pavement, wavering between going forward or backward.


I wonder what lies for me at the end of this road lined with

lamplights and palm trees. Fan-leaved branches stretch,

unfolding an animated deck of cards turning into murals that

grow in size. Shuffled and reshuffled at each step, some cards

flip into a hall of mirrors in which I lose myself in my own

reflections, as though in an old photo album where the faces

of those now buried are fading.


we’re crossing the bridge of death to leave behind

the madness . . . black sacks stained

with blood . . . stillness . . . snipers. . .

a heart skips a beat.


I walk faster, look sideways: some things are best forgotten.

Let’s fold the night into light. I pass a couple of young men

who seem to get closer to me, then recede and peel off the

murals, disintegrate like antique parchments at the sight of an

imposing woman in Tyrian purple, a younger version of my

mother who takes me by the hand and whispers in my ear:

There isn’t a minute to lose.


First published by Gargoyle

From The Taste of the Earth (Press 53 2019)


Lida Parent Harris

 


Michael Lee Johnson


Down by the Bridge


I’m the magic moment on magic mushrooms

$10 a gram, amphetamines, heroin for less.

Homeless, happy, Walmart discarded pillow

found in a puddle with a reflection,

down and dirty in the rain—down by the bridge.

Old street-time lover, I found the old bone man we share.

I’m in my butt-stink underwear, bra torn apart,

pants worn out, and holes in all the wrong places.

In the Chicago River, free washing machines.

Flipped out on Lucifer’s nighttime journey,

Night Train Express, bum wine, smooth

as sandpaper, 17.5 % alcohol by volume $5.56—

my boozer, hobo specialty wrapped in a brown bag.

Straight down the hatch, negative memories expire.

Daytime job, panhandling, shoplifting, Family Dollar store.

Salvation Army as an option. My prayers. I’ve done both.

Chicago River sounds, stone, pebble sand,

and small dead carp float by.

My cardboard bed box is broken down,

a mattress of angel fluff,

magic mushrooms seep into my stupor—

blocking out clicking of street parking meters.

I see Jesus passing by on a pontoon boat—

down by the river, down by my bridge.


David Fewster


ANGEL DUST


was the hip new drug in 1978.

Well, maybe not for the haute couture set,

who had their Fancy Dan "freebase",

but for us, the lumpen proles.

I remember we (me & my roommates Doug & Brian)

were at a party at Greg Ross' place,

overlooking the 405 freeway at Sepulveda and

everything was always coated in black soot.

If Charles Manson had a goofy,

possibly less-murderous little brother,

that would have been Greg.

Doug had met him in jail a couple months back,

when he got busted for drinking and being mouthy

on Venice Boardwalk.

(This is how we 'social networked' in our day.)

Greg became our go-to dealer for acid,

but the last shipment never came in,

and Greg owed us front money.

In lieu of the missing LSD, Greg offered to give equivalent value

in the new Wonder High, Angel Dust.

We figured we'd better take him up on his offer,

it was probably our only hope of reimbursement.

Taking us in the back bedroom,

he laid out lines of a vile-looking brown powder

(although not as vile as smoking it, I discovered,

unless one has an acquired taste for

dust-bunnies dipped in hot asphalt.)

I made a point of snorting the lion's share,

as most of the money-owed was mine.

After that, I remember two things.

One is sitting in the corner, deprived of the power of speech,

yet smiling like an idiot, looking around at the mix of

bikers, burnt-out hippies, teen-age runaways & drunks and

realizing if someone grabbed a ball peen hammer

and started beating me about the temples,

I'd still be wearing this shit-eating grin

as my brains oozed out over the carbon dust-covered floorboards.

"This is 'total derangement of the senses'?" I wondered.

The other is standing alone in the kitchen,

because I apparently got the munchies,

but the only foodstuff was a jar of peanut butter

which I was eating with a fork when

Brian walked in, went "Well, ok!"

and walked right out.

The rest of the night I only know second-hand:

blacking-out, foaming at the mouth, comatose,

to the point that our friend, who was nicknamed

"The Walking Scab with Boots" (not to his face, however--

he worked at a chemical plant and was usually covered

with ulcerous lesions) felt impelled to give me

mouth-to-mouth (which made me a tad disgusted when

I found out later, but, to be fair,

he probably wasn't too thrilled about the whole thing either)

before depositing my prone form in the back of his pickup

and carrying it back to our apartment

in the neighborhood east of Venice known as "Little Tijuana."


So, anyhow, there I lay on my ratty sofa bed

in the front room/kitchenette area of

our squalid, motel-style complex

(Brian had the other sofa bed; Doug being the elder,

got the bedroom--$240 a month,

which broke down to 80 bucks each),

my roomies' drug-addled brains no doubt

vaguely worried by the thought that

I might up and croak on them,

when finally in the pre-dawn hour I found voice

and moaned "Where am I?"

"Home," replied Doug.

"HHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMEEE?!" I cried out,

in such a long drawn-out syllable of relief & joy

given our sordid circumstances that Doug and Brian

burst out in laughter that was some time dissipating.

In fact, my little verbal ejaculation became something

of a private catch-phrase for a bit,

a joke both mocking and acknowledging

a deep existential longing for us & our ilk--

strangers, hundreds or thousands of miles

from our points of origin,

randomly thrown together, united

in our burning desire to wander

the streets of the City of Dreams.


I believe it took the better part of a month

for my brain to feel normal after this adventure.


Also, in case there is some perceived ambivalence,

these are what are fondly recalled as

'the good times'--

We were 19,20 & 21.



Illustration: Charles Baudelaire "Autoportrait sous l'influence de haschisch" 1842-1845.


Dean Okamura

Still night

   


After the night turns still 

and creatures cease 

stirring in their places 

of safest rest. 


Like a curtain is falling, 

made of silence, 

keeping us separate, 

split from the rest. 


The Angels are not singing. 

All things postponed. 

Holding their breath - waiting - 

as-if on-hold. 


Like sitting on the hillside 

over the town. 

A pleasant starry night - 

not warm or cold. 


I consult the sleepwalker 

who loves the night. 

If the heavenly bodies lose their shine - 

does anything remain? 


He says that nature is full of beauty. 

She speaks a language of hidden feeling. 

The night sky still circulates with life. 

It was a mystery - he couldn’t explain. 


Then we looked at his sketches - shadows of the sky - ballerinas on the winds - turbulent waves in the air - and the laughter of the moon. 




Images: Vincent van Gogh "Starry Night" (sketch and painting)


Petrouchka Alexieva

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Joe Grieco

NIGHT WINS


Electric air: breathe it in

and still night wins

We have an entire power station behind us in the headboard

and still night wins

Roll over roll over into the searchlights

our white flag all lit up

like a bedsheet stretched across the neon midway

You can’t miss it

And still night wins

Shall we agree to meet darkness half-way

No challenges, no tigers, no dogfights, a truce

Mourning doves pair-up, wings trussed

ready to surrender, to give in

But like Eve and Adam unplugged in Eden

for crimes of intimacy

there will be no mercy

Night wins


Pauli Dutton

Night Still


In the Still of Night

I used to dream

of passion overcoming

my reluctance

 

On my wedding night

I remained intact

for I’d never learned

what to do


Richard Dutton

Night Still

 

Still night

Not still tonight

Till night

Good night tonight

Still well tonight

Nights till

Tomorrow night

Wedding night

Party night  

Nighty night


Joan McNerney

Night

 

Slides under door jambs,

pouring through windows,

painting my room black.

 

This evening was spent

watching old movies.

Song-and-dance actors

looping through gay,

improbable plots.

 

All my plates are put away,

cups hanging on hooks.

The towel is still moist.

 

I blow out cinnamon candles,

wafting the air with spice.

Listening now to heat

sputtering and dogs

barking at winds. 




Wintry Bouquet


This December

during wide nights

hemmed by blackness,

I remember roses.

Pink yellow red violet

those satin blooms of June.


We must wait six months

before seeing blossoms,

touch their brightness

crush their scent

with fingertips.


Now there are only

ebony pools of winter’s

heavy ink of darkness.


Dipping into memory of

my lips touching petals

tantalizing sweet buds.

My body longs for softness.


I glimpse brilliant faces of

flowers right before me as I

burrow beneath frosty blankets.

Bracing against that long, cold

nocturnal of wind and shadow. 




Nightscape


Fog horns sound though

air soaked in blackness.

All evening long listening

to hiss of trucks, cars.


Shadows brush across walls

as trees trace their branches.

Gathering and waving

together then swaying apart.


While I sleep, stars glide

through heaven making

their appointed rounds in

ancient sacred procession.


Dreams as smooth as rose

petals spill into my mind

growing wild patches in

this dark garden of night.


Mike Turner

Still Night Haiku


Rest your weary soul

And listen to the still night

Between your heartbeats




Still Night’s Solace


As twilight settles

Shadows lengthening after the trying day

Workday at an end

Lay down your burdens

Rest easy

Tasks complete

And withdraw into comfort

Contentment

Finding respite from troubles

In the still night’s solace




Night, Still - (Haiku Trilogy)


Twilight descendeth 

Day’s last warm, golden rays fade

Formless shadows fall


Damp mists rise o’er us

Blue turns to grey turns to black

So naught may be seen


We pray for dawn’s light

Though the darkest shall yet come

For it is night, still


Michael McLaughlin

Fitting Sewage Pipes in Phoenix


People doing the work are like thieves intent on stealing

other people’s valuables 

When they are walking, they are walking intent on stealing,

and when they are sitting they are sitting intent on stealing

Journal entries fast as roadrunners, 

Pass

as poem ships In the night


All I want is five grand for 

my chapbook.


Four months 

fitting sewage pipes

in Phoenix.  Working graveyard to avoid

the heat.


Sleeping nine to five.


If the mentality that seeks honor 

and advantage does not cease, 

you will be ill at ease all your life


Four months 

fitting sewage pipes

in Phoenix


Sleeping 

nine to five


Journal entries 

Fast as roadrunners, 

Pass

as poem ships  


In the night



Thanks to Ming-pen, Dogen and the concept of found poem.






Stretching South



We were sixteen and after dark anywhere

Rolled in mud patches of star nights I don’t

Remember talking about. Fridays often. Mostly Saturdays

Orange Julius when you got off was where I picked you up

Just to see your mouth was making love midnight planes

bumbling into SFX near Canada College, the roundabout

where we’d make out and watch. The deer, cricket

seesaw scintillation. Sparkling lights along the bay

Stretching south. All news all the time KCBS 7:40

Why the “f” would you ever wear a watch?

I grew to know every part of your body.

From every angle such only probably happens once.

Remember the ledge outside Ms Pink’s

office Woodside High school corridors

Their wax paper windows all pulled up?

We both had a free seventh. Heaven.

Could we kiss a hundred times

before the bell went off?


Wyatt Underwood

still night


as so often was the case

when everything was reported

and there was nothing left to do

but catch the culprits if the police

were going to do that, note takers

closed and put away their notebooks

whether paper or electronic

and walked away to do whatever came next

but for the victim and her family

they were left with the frustration

that it was and might always be still night


 


maybe holy


in one version of the story,

angels filled the sky

and sang hosannas and praises

above a bunch of shepherds

cowering at the sudden jubilee

so much so that when the angels

stopped their singing and left,

the shepherds abandoned their 

flocks and hightailed toward town

where they found a manger

a baby, a worn out new mother,

a terrified old man, and three men

ostensibly wise equally in wonder

later that morning they had to explain

to their employer why they didn't know

where the goddamned sheep had gone

but for a moment at the manger

it was still night, and maybe holy


 


pre-dawn


once a little boy and his sister

woke in the middle of the night

sure they had heard sleigh bells

jingling away, so they rubbed their eyes,

held hands, and walked to the stairs

and down them, to look at the tree

and both sat down astounded

when they went to bed, a bear had sat

near a drum beneath the tree

but what their wondering eyes saw then

was forty-leven packages, a bicycle

and two dolls, a plate with crumbs

in it, and a mug with a tablespoon

of coffee left in it, they whooped 

and roused their parents, who also 

came down but the parents complained

"for pity's sake, it's still night!

couldn't you have waited until dawn?"


Lynn White

Silent Night Unholy Night


She lay there still

in the silent night

quiet in her bones

quiet in her flesh


but her heart was drumming

loudly


and her head was screaming

louder

still

still

her bones

and flesh

were quiet.


The parts that can be seen

were quiet

quiet as the night,

the unholy night.


So no one noticed the noise.




Still Night


I thought I would paint a still life.

Perhaps a still still life

dead still

dark as night

unmoving

unconnected to life

set up for its decorative value

or the challenges it presents

to the artist or viewer.


But now in the night it’s invisible,

still waiting for the light

still waiting 

to come to life

still unseen

in the darkness

where it’s still night

forever night.




New Day


The loss of light came as ever

as the year drew to a close

like the loss of light coming

as a life draws to its close.

That’s when the day ends

and the forever night begins. 


But now,

strangely

a new day begins

at midnight

in the middle of the night

when darkness is at its

blackest,

its most intense

and only the night owls

are out and about

heaving their midnight sighs.


Only for them is it still night.

So I breathe in the dawn

and against all the odds

I let the new day in.


Carl Stilwell AKA CaLokie

MANA* 


Mana is

Bahaman Brahmans chanting mantras before a Madagascar dawn

High noon profits of a Mama & Papa pot shop in Chicago 

Jogging off manifold Machiavellian manipulations on Saginaw sidewalk

The magic of a margarita with a Mohammedan Madonna in March 

Mana is EAST

Mana is SOUTH 

Mana is WEST

Mana is NORTH 


Mana is

Spring cantatas of rocking Rachmaninoff’ and be-bopping Bach

Jimi Hendrix, Joe Cocker, Santana and Janis Joplin at Woodstock 

Manioc madness manifested at a Madison, Wisconsin stomp dance

A sasquatch munching Choctaw chocolate on frozen Mackinaw swamp 

Mana is MORNING

Mana is AFTERNOON 

Mana is EVENING

Mana is NIGHT 


Mana is 

The Taj Mahal love of Shah Jahal for his wife, Mumtaz

The prophetic poetry of a pentecostal Hobbit in Managua mañana

Applauding Amada Delgado’s Tecate Tocatta at Montana cocktail lounge  

The colossal saxophone of Sonny Rollins melting Stockholm frost

Mana is SPRING

Mana is SUMMER

Mana is AUTUMN

Mana is WINTER


Mana is

The cosmic immensity of a Ma Yüan monochromatic ink drawing

Dietrich Bonhoeffer detoxification of Nazi demagoguery 

Mayahana contacts with Yahweh through an Allen Watts podcast

The BEYOND us which is also WITHIN us

Mana is INFANCY

Mana is YOUTH

Mana is MATURITY

Mana is OLD AGE


* Pervasive supernatural or magical power. (especially in Polynesian, Melanesian, and Māori belief)




OZYMANDIAS


COM LIT 250 CRITICAL BIBLE STUDIES SEMINAR: Loki draws a picture of a wormhole, finishes, and lays down her marker on the whiteboard tray)


Loki: Critical Bible Studies fans we are going to take a field trip to visit the one and only Ozy-MAN-DEEEEEE-USSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS! (Loki enters wormhole followed by her class.)



Scene 2: Loki’s class escorted inside royal palace for audience with Ozymandias who is sitting on his throne.  


Okie: Hey, Big O, I hear your boys kicked ass big time last war.


Ozymandias: That’s what I do, Baby! I am the greatest!


Cal: So who’s next? Looks like you really love war.


Ozymandias: I don’t necessary like war, buddy but I do love wealth and power and the more land you take the more power you get.


Edmund: And so now you’re number one.


Ozymandias: That’s right, buddy, In the game of empires there ain’t no number two.


Laura: When we came to  your palace, I saw this vast statue standing tall on two legs of stone which sculptors were working on. Most impressive. Who is this a statue of?


Ozymandias: You’re looking at him, sweetheart. The latest and largest of the many statues of me that my loyal subjects have erected all over my realm. I tell you my people can’t seem to get enough of me.


Amiri: Well all your buildings and roads are indeed impressive but still humans can not live by bread alone. What do you do to people of different faiths in kingdoms you conquer? Do you make them change their religions to yours?


Ozymandias: Well, the gods on my side are obviously stronger than the ones on my colonial subjects side but hey, I’m the most tolerant emperor ever and so I don’t give a shit who they worship as long as they pay me their tribute.


Chaz: Most magnanimous of you, Ozzy. At least you didn’t tear down the temples of another faith and built your places of worship on top of them as the “Onward Christian soldiers” did in Tenochtitlan.


Blake: Your majesty is in danger of provoking  divine wrath for his hubris. The scriptures  of my people say, “Pride goes before destruction and a haughty spirit before a fall”. Moreover, my lord and savior, who just happens to be the king of kings and Lord of Lords said in his Sermon on the Mount,“Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.”


Ozymandias: (Laughing) An army of wimps taking over the world. You’re funny, kid.


Blake: Well, I don’t mind being a fool for Christ, for I believe that 


One Day 

Every valley shall be exalted, 

and every mountain and hill shall be made low: 

and the crooked shall be made straight, 

and the rough places plain:

And the glory of the Lord shall be revealed, 

and all flesh shall see it together.


Maggie: (chanting)

My soul doth magnify the Lord,

and my spirit hath rejoiced in GOD MY SAV-IOR.


For he hath regarded the low estate of his handmaiden:

for, behold, from henceforth all generations SHALL 

CALL ME BLESSED.


For he that is mighty hath done to me great things;

and HOLY IS HIS NAME.


He hath put down the mighty from their seats,

and EXALTED THEM OF LOW DEGREE.


He hath filled the hungry with good things;

and the rich he hath sent EMPTY AWAY.


Edmund: According to your boy, Karl Marx, Mary’s moving Magnificat is nothing more than an opiate addiction.


Cal: He also said, “Religion is the sigh of the oppressed in a heartless world.


Ozymandias: Where in fuck did these religious nuts come from?


Loki: I think, your majesty, they’ve suddenly been afflicted with apocalyptic seizures.


Blake: What’s this handwriting I see written on the wall—MENE TEKEL PARSIN.


Ozymandias: What the fuck are you talking about? I don’t see no writin’ on no  wall.


Joni: I had two years of Pig Latin in high school and can interpret  these words you can see but don’t want to see. MENE means “numbered,” TEKEL means “weighed,” and PARSIN means “divided.” God has numbered the days of your empire and has brought it to an end. He has weighed you on his balance scales, and you fall short of what it takes to be a wise and good ruler. So God has divided your empire between the Medes and the Persians. In other words you be in deep shit, boy!


Ozymandias: Hey, skinny, you need to put some meat on your bones if you  don’t want to end up being a lonely old maid. 


Okie: For all you know she could end up being a happy lesbian.


Ozymandias: Anyway, you guys don’t know what you’re talkin’ about. Who ain’t gonna remember my name? Look at all the statues and monument made in my honor. I tell you my fame  is gonna live forever. 


SCENE 3 Loki’s class walks back to the wormhole to return home.


Loki: How long did Ozymandia’s empire last, Wiki?


Wiki Lin: (Looking at her iPhone) Not even close to being one of history’s longest and largest empires. The poet, Percy Bysshe Shelley, tells about a traveler from an antique land who said: 


Two vast and trunkless legs of stone

Stand in the desert. Near them on the sand,

Half sunk, a shattered visage lies, whose frown

And wrinkled lip and sneer of cold command

Tell that its sculptor well those passions read

Which yet survive, stamped on these lifeless things,

The hand that mocked them and the heart that fed.


Blake: And on the pedestal these words appear:

My name is Ozymandias, King of Kings:

Look on my works, ye mighty, and despair!

Nothing beside remains. Round the decay

Of that colossal wreck, boundless and bare,

The lone and level sands stretch far away


Charles A Perrone

Still Wet Spell


It was a dark and rainy, not stormy, night.

The precipitation was really just heavy mist

but Mother Nature missed the message, and

She continued to add fuel to the fire non-stop

for the entire span of afterhours and spires of 

downspouts and gutters and drains and strains

on the credibility of all of us who witnessed

the days and weeks of waters from the sky by

the side of the aquatic barn and the aquifer of

accumulated baggage and clichés and leftovers

from the great flood of the middle ages of life

and subsequent wafting and rafting all the way

down river to the end of the event and dockage.




Good for Me:


I happened to hear someone place his excuse 

for noticeable changes in the muddle of the night

and I thought not to meddle in ranges of ways

since I am by nature a model citizen who has 

made all efforts to be neighborly indeed

and to accept such merry mutations gladly



Dear Diary Four


They asked me to dredge up memories of a memorable somebody,

maybe reconstruct some things she, or he, had said at some point.

So, OK, my choice is Julian, a guy I think of when I recall street life.

At my previous place of residence there was no framed structure

on the lot, which was actually quite nice, to look at and camp on.

Still the mail carrier (notice I did not use the word mailman)

would deliver to the curbside box, which survived despite all.

And where there's a curb, there's a gutter,

and where there's a gutter there's always the possibility

of there having been days when big-time drunkards would simply

pass out there and sleep all night or until someone roused them.

That is where Julian comes in, as he was one of the rum-fueled

visionary bums who would gaze at the fancy-ass gutters beneath

the roofs of the show-off houses across the street and imagine

that the rain spilling down the spouts was in reality wine, brew,

spirits, firewater, moonshine to illuminate their dank innards.

And, according to him, lest anyone think there's no there there,

you folks need only trade your own lunar-cy

for the bright lights of a tomorrow's solar-cy.

And there you have it. I never got it either.


Luis Cuauhtemoc Berriozabal


With the Crickets at Night


I have stood

empty-handed,

liberated,

one is company,

and even a

shadow' is too much.


I am with

the crickets at

night, breathing

in the dark watching

nothing, hearing

every single sound


those critters

make: a language

I don't understand,

but enjoy a great

deal. It makes me

feel I'm not alone.





The Heart's Percentages 


I can't figure out what percentage

of my heart was left behind

in the old country.  I wonder if

it was the warm and innocent

part of my heart that stayed

in the town of Zacatepec.

The jungle was the nickname

given to the town by the other

soccer teams that came to play. 

They were usually eviscerated

by the heat and by the hometown team,

which was accustomed to the weather

conditions.  I hardly ever wore

shoes, always in sandals, and

many times without a shirt.

It has been more than thirty years

since I made my way back.

I feel my heart a little bit harder,

uncertain of what I would find if I

returned.  both of my grandparents

died.  They were the ones who

raised me when I was a young boy

there, from age two to age seven.

I wonder if my heart would be full

again once I stepped into that small

town, or would my heart break, along

with any percentage of warmth or

innocence still contained in my heart.





This Quiet Night 

 

Pensive on this quiet night.

I sit in a corner of a room.

The city no longer alive.

The air whispers faintly.

It is a strange air, like if it

wants to tell me things.

It is circling unlike a vulture. 

 

The house wants some

conversation or a song

to fill its spaces.  The night

remains quiet.  I discover

a certain jealousy. 

I love how quiet and still it is.

I offer the house the air

and its whispers.  But

the house is bitter,

like if it wants a party.

It remains sullen and cold. 

 

The quiet night soothes me.

It seems the house feels

more alone than me.

I knock on the wall to

acknowledge its needs

and then I blast the stereo.

 

  

Marie C Lecrivain

The Need to Bleed for the Dead


how fragile we are…  -- Sting


Last night, a man called Horse opened a wound     

to release his grief. I watched it slowly gush     

down his chest, a dark tributary of blood       

made real by movie magic. The need to heal     

by vivisection captures me, an end       

solution to sorrow that cannot breathe      


its last, except through the skin. Just breathe,     

I want to say, but the infected wound      

holds you fast like a lover that just can’t end       

this forbidden tryst, whose promises gush     

forth with desperate demands to heal     

the breach, the fatal humors in the blood.     


What else can be done? To shed torpid blood 

into the thirsty earth until we can’t breathe 

anymore seems foolish. Can we heal  

from bonds torn asunder and cleanse a wound 

that refuses to close? Do we love the gush 

of agony that indicates the end 


of happiness as we knew it? The end? 

Or just the beginning? Grief demands blood 

tribute be paid quickly in one long gush 

that will not be missed. Now. Let go -- and breathe 

easy. This is normal. Otherwise, the wound 

would suppurate and refuse to heal 


as it should. So, do you want to heal 

from this malady, or do you want to end 

up a fisher king with a mile-long wound 

that is poisoned by that very same blood 

you refuse to share until you can breathe 

in your putrid lies? Give into the gush 


of unhappiness. Let the anger gush 

forth. It’s normal. You’ll begin to heal, 

though it will take a long time. To breathe 

in a wisp of hope, to know there’s an end 

to the sick lure of grief and that our blood 

will run clean is what we need. The wound  


will turn into a scar that stops the gush 

of heartache. It’s how we choose to heal, 

and it’s as natural as how we breathe. 




What To Read to the Dead


Your poetry- first drafts.


The more salacious passages from The Story of O, but not the last 25 pages, because they fall fall flat.


Recipes - and the mini travelogs - from The Vincent and Mary Price Cookbook, and take extra care to linger over the desserts.


A Wrinkle in Time, particularly the passage where Meg has to fight for her little brother Charles Wallace’s soul. If you read this to your older dearly departed sibling, they'll hear it - and understand.


From the Old Testament, “The Song of Songs”; it's a celebration - and filled with joy. From the New Testament; nada, and from the Gnostic Gospels, whatever the hell you want.


Journey to the East, by Hermann Hesse, who transcended his literary despair to share a simple message of hope.


Wuthering Heights, to a dead lover, one that you're glad got away, because love - especially messed up love - lasts forever. 


Your diary - or their diary - and hold back nothing, because it's a one-on-one elegy, and confessional, and apology.


Fortune cookie slips from the bottom of your purse.


For suicides, the penultimate chapter from Lust For Life, and whisper the last sentence, “You cannot paint goodbye”, and for homicide victims, Goodnight Moonlight, or some other gentle tale.


A letter, written in the last moments before you arrive at their grave - tear-stained and sloppy- the truth will be in every word.  


Leave it there. And never come back.




The Neverending Lesson


One day, King Midas looked 

out his bedroom window, 

hands crammed In his pockets, 

at the old pomegranate tree,

and became consumed

with envy as he watch her shed

a thousand filigreed leaves

with no guile or regret.


After a day and night

of watching the tree

prepare for her winter sleep,

he once again 

came to the conclusion

it's not how much wealth

you consume in one lifetime

that’s important, but how 

that wealth is utilized,

and this epiphany 

echoed in his mind

while he sat upon his throne

and through gilded tears,

gazed upon the shining statue

of his long dead daughter,

a martyr of her father’s greed

and the end of his line.


R A Ruadh

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